Under cross-examination by prosecutor Paul Schutte, Sindisiwe Manqele repeatedly said this to the High Court sitting in Randburg.
She said she was forced to push and stab Habedi in an effort to flee from him.
“At the time that you executed the push-and-stab action, did you foresee the possibility that you would stab him?” Schutte asked her.
“Yes, I wanted to stab him, but I did not forsee where it [the knife] would land,” Manqele told the court.
“So you intentionally stabbed him?” Schutte proceeded.
“I did… So that I could get out of the room,” she replied.
The 26-year-old, who was Habedi’s girlfriend, has been charged with his murder.
She claimed however, that she acted in self-defence after the 110kg man pinned her on his bed, grabbed her hands and poked and stabbed her five times in the stomach.
She only received stitches for one of the wounds, which was 1.5cm long.
“I wanted to hurt him so that he would move from me and I could get out,” she said, adding she feared for her life.
Manqele said when she plunged the knife into him, she did not foresee that she would stab him in his heart or lungs.
A pathologist who previously gave evidence said the knife struck his rib cage and landed in his heart.
‘The mistake was killing him’
Manqele claimed she screamed when she saw Habedi staggering after the stabbing.
She grabbed her phone and tried to dial for an ambulance while she unlocked the bedroom door and yelled for help.
She then told Habedi’s relatives, who were in the house, that she had killed him by mistake.
Asked by Schutte to further elaborate, she said her choice of words may not have been correct as she was in a state of shock after seeing her lifeless lover on the floor.
“I stabbed him intentionally. The mistake was killing him,” she said.
After Manqele had been told that Habedi was dead, she broke a beer bottle and attempted to slit her wrists.
She was stopped by the police and paramedics who had attended to Habedi.
Manqele however, stammered when she was quizzed about Habedi’s alleged stab wounds to her stomach.
Asked when she had realised that her stomach was bleeding, she eventually said: “At the police station.”
Schutte said he would argue that the wounds were self-inflicted.
Manqele has concluded her testimony. A few more witnesses were expected to testify in her defence when court resumed on Friday.